This reminds me of when I was taking life drawing art classes with a fantastic art teacher.

He used to say first start sketching in the outline and keep looking – if you see a mistake – dont worry about it- just sketch over what you have done with the correction. He used to say you dont even need to rub out the mistakes if you do them lightly to start with. When you have finished doing the outline then at the end you can pencil it in darker.

Also he used to say when you have seen a mistake and you correct an angle or a shape in the outline – you can never go back to NOT seeing this. Like a rachet – that can’t come back down. You have seen it therefore you have seen it.

Blessings x

Relationship: Love, trust, commitment, excitement, caring, sharing, honesty, communication, closeness, loyalty, support, safety, happiness, connections, good feelings, sex

Security: Home, money, work, business, decision-making, bonds, ties

Meaning: What I do matters. Who I am is important. My contributions make a differences in my life and the lives of others. I am appreciated for who I am and loved just the way I am. I touch those around me. I belive in myself and I trust my beliefs, my feelings, my boundaries.

Enjoyment: I feel good, silly, young, carefree, juicy, bouyant and radiant. I live in the moment. I embrace life. I am relaxed, calm, and at peace with the past, present and future.

Well, I love that I can feel terrible about not getting what I need. At least SOMEONE can care enough about me to feel terrible. It’s a start.

yippee.

i love my sarcasm. i love my mean voices. i love my new awareness about wanting to be touched. that actually feels really good. yae for real. aw. i feel good about that.