Lots of love and hugs to you!!!

About my question regarding Circular Dating….I felt kind of scared posting that in that I felt like people would think I was doing something wrong but I don’t feel that now….I feel that I am trying to do the best that I can in my situation and still try to grow within myself. I have been thinking about Circular Dating lately but NOT in the way of possibly ‘finding somone’ to have in my life but in the way of practicing the tools and building myself up. I can totally see how that would REALLY help…to have men all around you wanting to spend time with you and get to know you more. I have not yet decided if I am going to move forward with it but it has been really heavily on my mind lately. C has been home alot more but is going to start to work some weekends and I don’t want to be home with nothing to do on a Friday or Saturday night as I so often am…I guess that part of this may even be out of boredom but I don’t believe that things ‘just happen’…I truly believe in a Divine Master Plan….so perhaps I am supposed to branch out and meet other people? I know that I would feel like I am doing something wrong or that I would be cheating on C..even with all that has happened meaning all that he has chosen to do within our relationship but two wrongs do not make a right and I still feel accountable for my OWN actions. I would be devasted if I ever found out he was seeing someone else so how can I do that to him? That right there does not feel good to me at all…it feels awful….I suppose therein lies my answer. I don’t want to do what does not feel good to have done to me no matter what someone else has done to me….did that make any sense? I am trying to branch out and meet more women here partly for my business and partly to build my own friendships and that will help me too. That feels good. I am also really trying to stay focused on the ‘what FEELS good to me’ stuff and that is awesome…..I am finding that it is even happening around little things like meals….’will it feel good to me or for me to eat this or that?’ How cool is that? I know that these are baby steps in the right direction but at least Iam no longer standing still and that feels good!

I love hearing everyone’s journeys. I have so much to keep learning and a lot that still triggers me in a relationship. No matter the situation, I feel interested in hearing how different women goddesses have used the tools.

Hello Linda – great to SEE you too!! The picture came up about the size of a postage stamp and there you were like a picture of a queen on it and looking a little like I imagined too!

Maria I am on three sites… eharmony (ugh) a waste of money. Match.com the jury is out on that one for me as of yet. Lots of men sign up out there but I dont think they are paying members. If they are there is a cold indifference out there. The final one is plentyofish. I am having some pretty success there so far. In fact a couple of men who ignored me on match have responded to me there and I have been given three # \’s to call in one day!… Whats a girl gonna do? lol So many men… so little time. Lets just say I am weeding through and listening to each of their messages that they bring. I am even listening and spending a bit of time with the first “frog” I met on match. He does have some redeaming qualities… everybody has something to bring and for us to learn from.

If anybody want to find me to see what I look like well my name on match and fish is MearlyMe. I have been so busy lately… I have not had a chance to read or post on this blog lately. As I said so many men and so little time.

Love to you all.. Linda

And I’m not sure if he’s right for me – well, he isn’t at the moment, I feel nice with him, but not excited. I feel good and enjoy cosy times in, but I feel bad sometimes that he keeps his friends separate from me (which he says is just the way he does things and always has, and even his friends do not meet one another). I feel good we see a lot of each other and I feel sad he goes home late and stays weekends only (occasionally week nights, and I’ve spoken about this couple days ago). I feel some leftover pain at something that happened a few weeks back. I want to write about it but the detail would identify him if any of my friends or anyone he knows just happened to be on here. But I feel I may write about it anyway. Soon.

But this emotrance is …keeping me smooth ???? … when I wanna rough up, stomp, announce and take control…. without taking away my boundaries and sense of what is important. I want to be able to speak when I need to without getting triggered into fear and fogginess.

Heartbeat, I feel so moved by what you shared on the emo post. And inspired, I just want to hug you for you and tap into your energy for myself. I feel with you about the anger thing, too. In Rori’s eletter about the latest interview CD, she says something about being surprised re the person we are all most angry with. My feeling is that it is ourselves, hence these nasty, frankly pitiless harpy voices that plague us to virtual death. From your lovely posts, I feel you’ve gotten them to give you some respite and so you are hearing your own real voice, Soft and clear.

Heartbeat-feels funny to read that you thought I was blond. I was thinking about changing my hair-color into red or blonde because I would like to change my look. But I still feel undecided. We’ll see