Here’s an amazing comment from LoveAlways, and Daria made sure I saw it (thank you, Daria) so I could make sure everyone saw it and feels hopeful just reading it:
Happy holiday weekend Sirens!
My weekly time to myself and to spam the blog with my feelings
I had an epiphany today – I looked in the mirror and my body has changed. I looked deep inside and I’ve changed there too – my energy has shifted into something unexpected.
I was an emotional wreak when I bought a bunch of Rori’s products all within one month’s time – I was obsessive!
I was looking to get back together with CDex and learn how to have better relationships with men so he and I could get married. I wanted to hire Rori as a coach, but she suggested on her web site starting with her ebook, then her programs.
Instead of getting him back and on my way to married, after 7 months of continuously listening to the programs, taking notes in the workbooks and talking about to to any woman who would listen (only a handful would tolerate me), I’m still not in a relationship headed towards married . . .
BUT I’ve changed so much and living such a better life within myself. I am happy now.
What I did was learn how to live my own life beautifully.
-I learned that CDex is toxic and the thought of being with him makes me feel slimy all over my skin like grease sticking to wet dishes.
-I learned that I am not perfect but WOW, am I Amazing!!!
-I learned to lean back and let men adore me and lavish me with gifts and to lavish their desires for me without my leaning forward one bit.
-I learned how to really love myself and take care of myself, and how to respond to men in the way that benefits ME best. Yes, it honestly is all about me, but in a good way, not like a b*tch (anymore).
-I learned to talk to men and how to not to talk to men
-I’ve learned to step away (lean back) from men! Unheard of pre-siren!
-I’ve learned the beauty of circular dating, what it means to me (as a reformed perpetual flirt), and to keep my feelings foremost of importance in my day to day living.
-I learned to keep it real and what real feels like for me deep inside my chest, and in my shoulders & thighs and sometimes in my tummy. I got OUT of my head!
Everything I’ve learned – this new way of being – this feminine metamorphosis – it’s uncharted territory for me. And now I know nothing, and it’s beautiful!
I don’t know what to do going forward for relationships.
I don’t know what a man thinks, and I don’t care anymore.
I can’t predict anything – but I understand now that I shouldn’t try.
I don’t care that I don’t have the answers anymore.
All I know is that I feel happy most of the time and it has very little to do with man (except when CD song tells me how beautiful I am – I feel that deep down in my back and it tingles).
I’m CDing in a totally different way these days, and it feels right. Too bad I spent the money on the dating web site! I still check it and correspond, but there are no connections there right now.
And connections – OMG, I connect with men in such different way, but it comes from them! They are reaching out to me connecting – and I’m just responding. I’ve thought of keeping a journal to keep track of it all.
Very very important – I am keeping safe. I feel preyed upon sometimes, and this was something to heal from my past. Still healing, but I know HOW to stay safe and what that means now.
I’m practicing my intimacy tools with CD song and he has turned into quite the tiger – I just give in to it all.
My body is changing (I’ve lost an entire dress size – and going for one more) and it’s more sensitive to my environment – material, water, lotion, skin . . . Like its a cool constant soothing sizzle all over.
My feelings for me are changing. If I hear or see something that doesn’t feel good to me, I feel it, feel it again, and then most times get away from it.
I respond to loveliness like a 3 year old (picture a professional woman smiling like a kid over a flower in the midst of a room full of men, and then returning to my argument like I never stopped – and yes, they responded to the smile).
I have immediate feelings now. My girl energy is taking over, and my boy energy is more concise.
Wow, not what I was expecting, but I’m living an amazing feeling existence now.