Living Through And After A Hurricane

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rori and zeke closeI was walking Zeke, my dog, this morning through my lovely, leafy neighborhood streets – and happened upon a house who’s co-opted a real estate box and instead put poems in it!

Every week they print out and make copies of poems they like – it’s so fanciful and wonderful… This one was in it today,  and I liked it so much I found it and wanted to share it with you.

Hurricane

By Mary Oliver

It didn’t behave
like anything you had
ever imagined. The wind
tore at the trees, the rain
fell for days slant and hard.
The back of the hand
to everything. I watched
the trees bow and their leaves fall
and crawl back into the earth.
As though, that was that.
This was one hurricane
I lived through, the other one
was of a different sort, and
lasted longer. Then
I felt my own leaves giving up and
falling. The back of the hand to
everything. But listen now to what happened
to the actual trees;
toward the end of that summer they
pushed new leaves from their stubbed limbs.
It was the wrong season, yes,
but they couldn’t stop. They
looked like telephone poles and didn’t
care. And after the leaves came
blossoms. For some things
there are no wrong seasons.
Which is what I dream of for me.

My Thoughts…

We’ve all been through hurricanes in our lives. We’ve been knocked down, whipped around, stripped of everything we thought of ourselves, everything we believed… frightened out of our minds, pinned to the wall, hiding under the carpet.

This image of how a tree – many trees – stand through a hurricane and thrive in the aftermath just struck me so deeply.

They stand, stripped of their leaves, stripped of their fruits, stripped of anything that looks like a tree to us.

And they sprout.

You can sprout, too. So can I. We all can make new flowers, new leaves, new life.

The life force that comes through us is undeniable. Unstoppable. In my opinion we don’t even know what happens after the forms of our bodies are no longer.

If you’ve suffered a horrible loss – of love, of a person, of a beloved pet – I hope this is helpful… It really spoke to me in a very uplifting way…and Mary Oliver (I’m now getting into her work around dogs…) is incredible.

I like to believe that one person, one thing leads me to another. And so, when someone or something – a poem here – shows up on my doorstep or right in front of me…it’s my clue to follow.

The paths we can go down, the experiences we can have, the doors that open for us when we follow things that show up in our lives and feel good to us – I say yes to them all.

Love, Rori

 

 

 

 

 

 

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  1.  #1Helena Hart on December 8, 2015 at 10:26 am

    “For some things there are no wrong seasons. Which is what I dream of for me…” – beautiful!!!

    Love, Helena



  2.  #2Femininewoman on December 8, 2015 at 11:54 pm

    I am saying yes too



  3.  #3Sweet and spicy on December 9, 2015 at 11:01 am

    Hi all I just want to share I feel sad, angry, frustrated, and confused. My fiancé has a friend that’s a girl who like to flirt with him and it makes me feel jealous and uncomfortable. She told him last time jokingly to make a pole in her room. She also told him to fill her cookie with cream… All of this with me next to him. I freeze when this happens I just feel so uncomfortable. Recently on Facebook he commented to a post she wrote saying he disagreed and she replied “but you know you love me.” And in general she is so flirtatious it’s mega annoying!! I’ve confronted him abut her yet he says she’s like a sister to him and he doesn’t notice or the very least says it’s completely harmless. I also want to add that when I got engaged she congratulated me and followed with letting me know he asked for her opinion on it and she tried it on first. I can’t stand this anymore and I feel like I look like a crazy jealous person but I am not comfortable with this please help anyone with any feedback on this!



  4.  #4Kath on December 9, 2015 at 12:44 pm

    Hi Ladies,

    Needing advice and siren skills please!
    My man and I have recently got back together after a year apart. We were talking the other night and he asked me if I’d slept with anyone whilst I’d been single in the last year. I answered honestly and said no, I know he has-but I don’t know how many-and I am scared to ask incase he tells me the truth- I have said I don’t want to sleep with him yet- its a part of a relationship I was never in any doubt about- but I want us to learn about each other again and to see whether we like being around each other. The thing is, he told me he found himself in a situation a couple of months before we got back together that were “totally out of his control”. I think otherwise- I know what happened, and I know he instigated, suggested, hinted, led her to think, whatever way you want to look at it, he was very much in control of what happened. Do I keep picking that scab and let him know what I think, or do I just sit tight, stick to my position of listening and leaning back?-Sorry if I am a bit rambling- I am having trouble leaning back right now!



  5.  #5HeartBeat on December 9, 2015 at 7:48 pm

    Hi Kath,
    Are you and him in an exclusive arrangement?
    Are you dating other guys?

    If it were me, I might say something like “I don’t feel comfortable having sex yet but I do feel interested to see how this relationships feels.”- if that’s true!
    If I secretly feel sick at the thought of ‘trying’ to do this and I’m just pushing for it because I’m unaware of my options, then I may choose to do something else.

    Frankly, I’d have also said when he told me he was in a situation that was ‘out of his control’ – whether true or an exaggeration- I’d have said, “I don’t feel comfortable being with a man who hasn’t got authority over his sexual behaviour, I feel turned off and unsafe.”- which is true for me- Then I’d have dated someone else.

    This is what would feel good to me.
    This may not at all feel good to you.
    Your feelings are important and valid.

    Love HeartBeat



  6.  #6HeartBeat on December 9, 2015 at 8:37 pm

    I feel eager to clarify I’m not saying that ‘my way is right’
    This is just my interpretation.



  7.  #7Indigo on December 9, 2015 at 9:04 pm

    Kath,

    My perspective is a bit different in that I would not be wanting to “go there” in terms of who you slept with while you were apart. For me, this would fall under the category of “his business” and “my business” and has nothing to do with our relationship now, as long as those liaisons are truly done. There is SO much to feel icky around when it comes to past sexual encounters… why do you even want to know?



  8.  #8Victoria on December 9, 2015 at 10:45 pm

    I sent my comment for an answer, but forgot too put my name in. I’m the infertal one with terminal cancer. Do I have any hope? I will do anything. Please help. I have been ripped from another love dr. Before And hope your the one who can help.



  9.  #9Victoria on December 10, 2015 at 2:30 am

    Kath,
    If you were not together at the time, it was not cheating or anything like that, right?
    From my own experience, when a man says that things went out of control, he usually mean he intended to just have s*x with that woman, but then she wanted more, and he kind of got carried away because the s*x was not too bad, and it all got complicated.
    Otherwise, of course he instigates, suggested, hinted, tried to seduce her, how else would he be getting any?
    Just my two cents. What do you think?



  10.  #10Victoria on December 10, 2015 at 2:40 am

    Kath,
    also, based on the above, I guess (please correct me if I am wrong) that you are thinking to yourself “now, if you and I go to the next level, would you be one day pretending that it was nothing, or out of your control?”.
    If that is the case, you are doing very well by allowing the time to get to know each other better and not having s*x too soon. At the same time, I know it is aucquard when you were previously sleeping with the man. You may wish to try to prepare a script with feeling messages about how important s*x is for you, and that you really like to know each other better and not cause each other heart break this time around.



  11.  #11Femininewoman on December 10, 2015 at 4:23 am

    Kath for me, when you say recently got back together I wonder what type of agreement or commitment you have made with him so far. You see, after all that happened I wouldn’t encourage you to take him back immediately. Ask yourself what would be your motivation to wanting to pick any scab? Is it because you are wanting to find fault with him or is it that deep down you recognize that you feel the need to build back the level of trust and communication? What could picking the scab create? Bring things back to yourself, clarify what you really want and set your intention. Let your decisions be based on the intention and your commitment to yourself.

    My opinion is though the man is the same the relationship should be new. You don’t want to start where you left off. You want to start a new relationship, Reason being the old one did not work. You don’t want to start the old cycle again where you rinse and repeat the brokenness. Make conscious decisions, conscious commitments and take conscious actions.



  12.  #12Indigo on December 10, 2015 at 4:58 am

    Love it, Feminine Woman.



  13.  #13Kath on December 10, 2015 at 2:59 pm

    Thankyou Sirens, I really value your input. Yes, I want a new relationship with this man- the old one didn’t work-I have grown a lot in this last year- I value me again and I am calmer and stronger. I lost myself in the relationship before in leaning forward too much. I’m not doing that anymore. I am happy being me and I am also happy him being him- although I have seen a number of changes in him- all for the good- and they make me smile. I am taking it slow though and I love that you guys are here to help me when I need it- you are all awesome- thankyou xx



  14.  #14Waterfall on December 10, 2015 at 4:18 pm

    Hi Sirens,

    Thank you Rori for this post. It reminds me of lots of situations I have been in in my life.

    I am currently feeling blown about & shattered!! I had a run in today with a consultant im my workplace who said some pretty hurtful things to me which were unhelpful assumptions that he had made about me. I felt unable to stand my ground & got very defensive & angry and really snapped at him.

    I am so sick of where I work everytime I ask a question I am responded to with a question. Boy it is tiring!! We have just had two new managers in my team & both just keep asking me what they are supposed to be doing. Then the third manager is coming along and comstantly asking me questions too…

    I know its a weird thing to day but I feel they don’t like me and I can’t put my finger on why?! What is it about me, why don’t I fit in??!!

    It is the same where I work. I get on with other designers but I hate working in an Agile framework as I feel like I am doing all the work & everyone else just watches & critises…

    Pfftt



  15.  #15nyx on December 10, 2015 at 5:46 pm

    wow, Kath, Indigo, Femininewoman, Victoria, Heartbeat

    Kath: a guy implying a situation was beyond his control is a guy who doesn’t want to take any responsibility and wants NO continuation WHATSOEVER of that situation… quite comfortable if you want to know if that past woman is a current threat, not-quite-that-comfortable when YOU happen to be(or could become) that woman. THIS is why we want men who owns what they did and why, even if it looks like ” I was horny, so I slept with her and regretted it immediatedly.”
    Indigo: yes, whatever happens in between IS his or hers business alone. This is the version between the partners.
    Femininewoman: “Ask yourself what would be your motivation to wanting to pick any scab?” This is the version for you. Makes him look less desirable, makes you ask yourself important questions.
    Victoria: you shed the male light on things. Thanks. 🙂
    Heartbeat: when I read:´ “I’d have said, “I don’t feel comfortable being with a man who hasn’t got authority over his sexual behaviour, I feel turned off and unsafe.” This is it all, in a nutshell. As in: “I hear you, I understand you do not want more with her, and yet- I want a partner who knows how to take personal responsibility, even for the bad desicions.”
    Thank you. This is perfection, in one sentence. *bows*



  16.  #16nyx on December 10, 2015 at 5:50 pm

    @Waterfall
    “We have just had two new managers in my team & both just keep asking me what they are supposed to be doing. Then the third manager is coming along and comstantly asking me questions too…”
    Waterfall: the universe is clearly telling you to apply for the position of manager. What are you waiting for? The FOURTH, or FIFTH or FIFTYSEVENTH person to ask you how to be a manager? 😉
    much love to you 🙂



  17.  #17Daria on December 10, 2015 at 8:53 pm

    Oh God yes i feel teary please let me sprout again please let it ‘work’ let it be true



  18.  #18Daria on December 10, 2015 at 8:54 pm

    On POF and YES to attractive men showing me that they exist and that they are interested in me

    Oh Self Esteem sprout sprout sprout in full force I am still that woman



  19.  #19Daria on December 10, 2015 at 9:02 pm

    I’m crying I’m crying I’m crying



  20.  #20Daria on December 10, 2015 at 9:29 pm

    I saw the flash and now I heard the thunder… mmmmm feels like a hug

    Guess what happened to me guys… for 2 years I got an EMF sensitivity and couldn’t really spend time at the computer much or on the phone… which meant my online dating went to nothing…

    but i kept on and hoping I will heal…

    and then this summer I had a mental breakdown! So scary to lose reality… so scary like nothing else, lose Earth, and faith, and not be able to use Strength …

    and then the medicine for it that made me not want to do anything, and everything even seeing a friend became so hard, so hard! and hit me with a depression so BIG so BIG! fear of nothing, a cloudy day brings there no joy or meaning of life, the desperation

    to see how a deep person could become so shallow… in desperateness for … something … feeling like goodbye to my dreams of marriage and children… and trying sex just to see if it makes a difference… and feeling nothing… but just hoping to be close to a human for their biological aliveness like an energy need… waking up wishing it was time to go to sleep again and again… wishing for death but not dead, and still scared of death too… oh i see why addicts are on drugs now i do they are not stupid not at all

    and then sleep ended, and back on more medication to sleep and sleep is always chasing always running and feeling weird waking up feeling icky

    but the scary breaks with reality stopped. that is luck.
    and now slowly and gently am down and off the debilitating medication too.

    and you know what it did for me as a side? it helped my EMF sensitivity… 🙂 so I’m writing here now… I’m still feeling it… but I’m back on the computer some. Enough to check my POF and use my phone for those 10 min conversations 🙂 THRILLL

    and today I’m writing here. I want my confidence back, that full of myselfness even that better than othersness I am admitting that thing that made me care about washing my hair and picking an outfit, that knowing that I will be wanted and admired

    cuz I’m feeling a little scared and a little not good enough. That I don’t have much to offer I don’t have those dreams to peddle to men of a wife and family… but I still can, they’re coming back to me now, I want my confidence my 100% confidence my I am the one and the shit confidence mmmmm

    how horrible life was without it, and what a relief and relief again to be back, to be so lucky not to deal with monsters or be a zombie forever, and yet it shook me, and i want that 100. more than the 90. its only been 4 months, I bet my leaves will grow and blossom,

    those 2 years of EMF pains didn’t dent my dreams, they did limit the way I saw what was coming because I lost my man flood down to a trickle, but still I had Dreams and I had it down… and now I got shook I got shook for real this was like nothing else

    but I guess I’m getting a chance to be back. And I want to say I feel so relieved, but I’m taking it for granted, really. Taking it for granted cuz I want more i want the dreams I want the joy and happy and even the excitement and I really want the great sex I want a lot of that



  21.  #21Zia on December 10, 2015 at 9:41 pm

    Hi Daria 🙂



  22.  #22Daria on December 10, 2015 at 9:45 pm

    I want a ‘job’ because I no longer think I can just use the law of attraction to draw in my dreams. Sorry law of attraction, you Shouldn’t have let me down so drastically…

    but I’m afraid I’ll get something that hurts my health, I don’t want artificial lights or … u know being around WIFI or computers or…

    I’m afraid to to apply, I think I’ll get turned down and then be even more afraid… I’m so blocked!

    I wanted to be a stay at home mommy and didn’t think I’d need a job or that it’d be in my way but you know I don’t know now, I don’t trust that that will just work out, and living in this room at my parents’ house where I don’t get to have men over just doesn’t promote relationship (or sex)

    and yet even a job probably won’t get me out this room, what if I’m just tired and my health gets worse, this is a big challenge for me, I don’t get a coach but maybe I will get help from a therapist but somehow I will make a move on this anyway oh I hope I will

    I want to have my trust and confidence that I at least know How to get a job I feel so blocked by my fears. I wish I could go back to highschool again and just pretend I’m 15 haha no one could tell



  23.  #23Daria on December 10, 2015 at 9:46 pm

    Hi Zia 🙂 I feel smily and loved to get a greeting …



  24.  #24Kath on December 10, 2015 at 9:47 pm

    Nyx,
    Thankyou Siren- brilliantly put!- I do want a man who can take responsibility for his actions. I am sad to see that part of him doesn’t seem to have changed. I invited him to dinner tomorrow night (invited him 2wks ago) and guess what?- I haven’t heard anything from him in that time. I am so confused but now starting to feel that I am not important to him. I will see what happens tomorrow but I will be leaning way back and listening to everything he says and does. I can’t allow myself to be hurt again.



  25.  #25Daria on December 10, 2015 at 9:51 pm

    I look like a telephone but I do care, but I guess it doesn’t matter much as long as my leaves are sprouting, I wanted to be dead but I’m still living and I guess that will bring healing and not more suffering apparently apparently there’s no choice to trust or not at least this time cuz the overwhelmingness of it all just snoball steamrolls on anyway what a strange existence where there’s nothing to trust in really but you forget or trust Something anyway like sunrise because biologically you are only capable of small understandings that just roll on



  26.  #26Daria on December 10, 2015 at 9:52 pm

    ah that is a ‘telephone pole’ haha this tree looks like a telephone pole



  27.  #27Daria on December 10, 2015 at 10:11 pm

    i am capable of deep and dramatic bouts of hopelessness and addiction to writing is clearly back in force

    I feel very mad at you life and I shake a bat at you

    because I think you Tricked me but I’m so terrified haha I can only conceptualize and act childlishly whatever that means and

    at least I had so MUCH of feel good till you showed me nightmares

    who wants to come back in another life probably not me, before yeah to the joy but now not taht you Tricked me you told me I could Dream and get it and you Lied, stuff is boring and rather tragic

    seriously life ? Tragic thats what you are ? you suck

    now in this place of reality where truth is through and surrounded by magnetic fields that alter biology and where people get OLD and probably lose their health and power and joy and

    where there is probably some extinction event going down indeed due to human behavior im supposed to be happy without superpowers or maybe not suppose to be happy because you Dont support me at all you are rather quite indifferent after all

    but Rori says you support me so im supposed to believe that even after all this i DONT so maybe its indifferent but

    there still do appear Some handsome men on POF and Some ability to connect through a computer despite tightnesses in my skull and Some ability to survive despite being affected by all kinds of strange things

    so what can I use to build happiness now? I don’t trust your beautiful smells and fresh air as enough cuz you zap me

    I don’t trust your sex cuz the plastic rubs me and if I don’t my thirsty womb will create that life that I want but I want timed just right and maybe I’m there now and will be faced with that decision I don ‘t want but that is a story I will ignore for another week

    Give me that marriage that will actually WORK for me

    fu*ck you I feel so mad at you! I feel smily cuz I feel gentle now actually and sleepy and look it’s late and you kept me from the early sleep I was planning and

    who knows how long I’ll actually be alive seeing the existence of accidents. we humans coming crawling out of our consciousness to make some Feeling Sense of this existence when it is So different for all of us as I got to experience… sigh

    do you know how lucky I am to be ME now?

    how much luckier I’d be to have that steady ladder to Better health,

    or to better SEX oh I am So desirous of SEX u know some people don’t have it but for me I so so CARE about it ?i want it and I might never get it cuz maybe im downhill. gently but downhill huh. but maybe not, I just don’t know sigh, give me a LADDER not a question

    I want that marriage but can I hope for that, me the one who’s wanted by the ones who don’t fit, or the ones who won’t last? I’ve been working on this one awhile and it’s not looking

    well it’s not looking like anything but that I will settle

    eventually probably

    maybe I’ll be the one who settles and cheats to get my great sex maybe its not so bad to be unethical after all because life you showed me how much ish doesn’t matter when reality goes unreal and nothing and i mean Nothing holds



  28.  #28Daria on December 10, 2015 at 10:17 pm

    the sexy guy on POF just wrote me

    I feel teary and pleased life you are a TRICKSTER!!! aahhh is it you doing this to me or does it not even matter…

    spamming the blog with riffs like a hurricane

    feeling guilty that the beautiful ladies might want to use this blank computer space to read Rational words

    that = me feeling unworthy and I’m feeling smily

    I hope he hurries and writes so I can give him my number and sign off… 2nd attractive guy I’m getting on there tonite…

    thank you life for keeping POF so pleasing for me



  29.  #29Daria on December 10, 2015 at 10:20 pm

    oh God he wrote he said I’m truly angelic sigh happiness in the indifferent or not world but I do like these moments and I still like the smell of the fresh air…

    can’t even give him my number yet the flow is too strong from him to me for me to stop



  30.  #30Daria on December 10, 2015 at 10:23 pm

    but now I wanna go ! lol … I’m not gonna wait around either…

    do call me love and say I’m truly angelic and I can’t be single again super handsome stranger that doesn’t live far



  31.  #31Daria on December 10, 2015 at 10:37 pm

    this dude said I have a beautiful AURA… omg STOP IT!!!

    i’m feeling great and I gave him my number now…

    the other guy wrote me again too

    goodnite ladies

    sigh I feel very pleased tonite … keep getting on POF is my task practice

    and here too since apparently I can now tolerate it



  32.  #32Mandy on December 10, 2015 at 11:06 pm

    Look what Valentine said…and I haven’t even spoken a word…not one script, not one word to him about missing him, like I have told the Sirens….he said this, verbatim, he scripted to ME….

    “I feel as if I haven’t really given you the attention you deserve. I feel like I’ve been failing you. I made promises I haven’t kept due to everything going on as of late. Makes me feel like shit I haven’t been able to give you all my attention.”

    I’ve never ever heard a man say anything like this ever before and it made me melt in a split second.

    He then doted upon me and was at my disposal for a few hours after with listening/talking. I could tell he really, really felt awful about it and wanted to make up for it with double the amount of care, even though we’re not bf/gf, even though we’re just friends.

    I didn’t even say anything to him about it yet. I was sad over the past few days about it, he must’ve sensed it!!!! I just didn’t want to be that Viking Warrior volcano and say some crazy crap to him. Apparently I didn’t even need to!

    Does this happen, are there men out there you might not even need to script to because they are so masculine? How COOL would that be???

    Wow this is a nice surprise!!!! Usually I’m used to guys being oblivious and not giving a flying hoot.

    I can really feel his presence now, again. It feels just like him, his authenticity. I don’t feel confused now.

    I know I sound overly excited, lol, but this man continues to surprise me, and when I get surprised, it comes out like confetti and party balloons exploding out of me, it’s dramatic and full of passion.
    I don’t want to sound like I’m excited about taking table scraps for affection from him (i.e., getting excited as hell over the littlest bit off attention) but this thing he said really…WARMED me to the point of celebration, I never could imagine a guy doing that ever. If you told me he was going to say those things and mean them, I’d say HA, yeah right…

    Here’s to surprises!

    It’s like one of those moments where maybe there’s a spark of hope with men!

    My face is pink!



  33.  #33Indigo on December 11, 2015 at 12:30 am

    Mandy,

    The majority of men I have had relationships with have been like this. Basically good guys who are fully aware of it when they do something you don’t like or neglect you . Very little scripting necessary.

    Like I said earlier, the ones with integrity generally hate to feel like they’ve failed or disappointed you and so will tell you and pull back, like this guy has done. If they have a sincere reason for not being able to meet your needs and they sense you want more they will disappear at around this time to take care of whatever it is. Of course the not-so-great guys will string you along or disappear with no word at all.



  34.  #34Lilybelly on December 11, 2015 at 6:47 am

    (((Daria))))

    I feel so happy to see you..

    xoxo



  35.  #35Starla on December 11, 2015 at 8:54 am

    I feel my heart breaking reading about what you been through, Daria. I didn’t see you online much anymore and I figured it’s because you were off doing big amazing things with awesome guys and stuff. And I also feel like it’s no biggie – you’ll bounce back and you got this. Um hello, you are THE GREAT DARIA, duh! You have much power. Actually, it seems you’re already starting to bounce back!!

    I hope you don’t turn your back on the law of attraction. Well, is that REALLY possible? I mean, that law exists and functions whether you acknowledge it or not. Somewhere along the way you ended up attracting more “bad” than “good,” I suppose. That’s something you’ll be able to tweak and figure out, plus there’s that annoying but true platitude that everything happens for a reason. Sounds like you’re now in search of more of a happy medium with how you create your livelihood. Daria, you were born to figure stuff like this out and have always been a master at thinking that is simultaneously highly analytical and highly intuitive (the stuff TRUE geniuses are made of). You got this.



  36.  #36Azure Blu on December 11, 2015 at 10:25 am

    (((Mandy))))
    Sooo Happy for YOu!!!

    I love what you said here:
    “when I get surprised,
    it comes out like confetti
    and party balloons exploding out of me,
    it’s dramatic and full of passion.”
    Such warm sunshiny feeling words!!!
    I will use them — if that’s ok? :-))



  37.  #37Azure Blu on December 11, 2015 at 10:29 am

    (((Daria)))
    I feel warm and happy seeing your words here

    My heart is heavy and sighing with the weight of what you have been through…
    embracing you with huggs and warm, pink cashmere shawls
    Lovely lady… Stay and sit by the Rori Blog fire
    and ease into
    all that wonderful feminine strength that is yours.
    oxoxo



  38.  #38Mandy on December 11, 2015 at 10:41 am

    Indigo,

    Right now he’s focused on meeting my needs, which is what I want.

    He may have stepped back there, for a minute, but separating from your child’s parent (even if only roommates) is tough, then living with his mother, having tooth pain and working ten-hour graveyard shifts five days a week makes for a busy man.

    I was praised for my patience. Just felt so good to hear those words. It was like I paid someone to tell him what to say, lol.



  39.  #39Liquid Light on December 11, 2015 at 11:45 am

    ((((((((((((((((((Daria))))))))))))))))))))))))

    Its great to see you back here again, Daria! You’ve got a very special light and spirit that we’ve missed here. I so hope that spirit shines brightly again, as it sounds like it is. Please don’t think that you aren’t exceptional and extraordinary and that you don’t have incredible gifts to share with us here and with the world. You do!!!

    Big hugs, girl!!

    LL



  40.  #40Daria on December 11, 2015 at 12:48 pm

    ((((Lilybelly))))

    feeling so smily to see you too!!



  41.  #41Daria on December 11, 2015 at 12:50 pm

    Starla – I miss you my dear friend. Thank you for your words I feel the brick-made support and reminder of Who I AM

    maybe i can fill in this cracked foundation with some goop and still have my solid house



  42.  #42Daria on December 11, 2015 at 12:51 pm

    ((((Azure Blu)))) – I feel melted, that Rori fire feels so good right now



  43.  #43Daria on December 11, 2015 at 12:53 pm

    ((((((Liquid Light)))))) – thank you ! today I was doubting myself and trying to remember myself and your words have shown me that I can find healing here and the confidence I’m looking for again I can build it again right here



  44.  #44Mandy on December 11, 2015 at 2:51 pm

    Azure, thanks for your understanding 🙂



  45.  #45BeLoved on December 11, 2015 at 5:32 pm

    ((((Daria)))!!!! It feels so good and I’m smiling from ear to ear to hear your lovely voice on the blog again!



  46.  #46Daria on December 11, 2015 at 7:08 pm

    awww beloved (((((Beloved))))) 🙂



  47.  #47Radlove on December 11, 2015 at 11:45 pm

    FOR DARIA:

    First…Hello friends! I’m back too! I don’t know for how long, because life is nonstop. But I love this space and all of you women who have contributed so much to my major life change that has resulted in so much good!!!!

    At the top of that list is Lady Rori!! Respect Rori Raye, you have my eternal gratitude!

    Dear Daria,

    And second on that list is Lady Daria! Respect, Daria! You may have been ravaged by a hurricane when you want to be ravaged by a man. But you have taught me so much. You have been patient and detailed with me from your incredibly intelligent mind and your most unique spirit and heart and soul! I love you and I want God’s best for you! All the answers you seek are in the Word of God. I say that not to annoy you but to give back to you after all you have given me.

    Lady Daria, you gave me so many breakthroughs at moments of deep confusion and loneliness when I didn’t think anyone could possibly understand or be there in my blackhole of isolation. Yet you were there time and time again, magical Daria, Daria, Daria, appearing like a genie in a bottle. Most of all you helped me understand how to reconnect to the lil girl and to love her!

    So I hope you are still loving the lil girl in you! We are so opposite and so much the same!!! I love you and respect you and thank you for all eternity!



  48.  #48Radlove on December 11, 2015 at 11:50 pm

    I feel amazed to see so many of my friends here who I have known for 5 years now! I am so blessed, and I am in love! It took 51 years…and it was worth every lonely night!

    Feeling messages work! Leaning back works! Being love works! Love that lil girl, and the love will flow more easily to those around you…

    I love you, each Siren! And it’s almost 3 am here and I’m out of steam…



  49.  #49Sirenity on December 15, 2015 at 5:31 am

    Daria ,

    You have brought me back to these pages too to give you a (((hug))). I asked after you recently of other Sirens, and now suddenly here you are!

    Yes it has been a hurricane of giant proportion, and I love what Radlove wrote about being ravaged by the storm and not the man .Yet you sound so insightful and strong , doing your healing tasks and allowing the sprouting of new growth now the storm has passed.Go gently with Siren Sunshine to unfurl the soft green buds.



  50.  #50Azure Blu on December 15, 2015 at 8:14 am

    Radlove #46
    Thank you for sharing the Rori tools that have worked for you!!!
    So happy to hear about a wonderful Love in your life!
    oxoxo



  51.  #51Radlove on December 15, 2015 at 4:46 pm

    Azure Blue,

    Thank you and you’re welcome! MIRACLES are happening in my life! I wish i could break it all down, but that time will come when it’s right.