Shredding The Originals And Starting This Moment

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Every morning I get one of these “Notes From The Universe” from Tut.com and I look forward to them, I save them, I print them out, I put them on my wall.ย  Sometimes they make my day.ย  They always get me going, and sometimes they put such a quick positive, happy spin on things I can feel the lift in my energy.

This one came today:

“Oh yeah, regarding your ancient spiritual contracts, Rori, that outlined every facet of the life you now lead? Well, just wanted to remind you that they’re all re-written every dawn, and perpetually updated as each day unfolds.

Proving yet again that nothing is meant to be, that you are truly unlimited, and that anything can happen next, if you choose it. Whooohooooo!

The Universe

…In which case it should matter very little to you, Rori, that all the originals were accidentally shred this morning, right?ย  Cheers. “

There’s so much in this tiny piece that affected me – the joy and humor – but it was the idea of “shredding the originals” that got me.

What if you could erase all memory?

What if every single moment had no pictures of the past, no ideas and words from your past, no voices from your past – nothing but the present?

Nothing but THIS moment?

Try it.

Walk around, and every time you see something – a picture, an object, an image from your own brain – that brings you backward in time, imagine it not there. (I even experimented and took pictures off my walls, out of my office to see how that feels.)

There’s a wonderful, fresh feeling that happens in your heart and body when you see things as they are, right this moment, through your eyes, your heart, your body – instead of through the filter of long ago.

Let me know how this feels for you…

Love, Rori

33 Comments

  1.  #1Ann on March 6, 2009 at 5:26 pm

    Thanks for the lin Rori I’m going to check it out.

    I’m also going to experiment with this post. What I got from it was to look at things like this was the first time I was seeing it. With no preconcieved ideas.

    I just put on my vanilla raspberry body lotion. I love the smell of this. It feels so soft on my body, but I’m enjoying it tonight like I’ve never wore it before. It’s a light pink creamy color that’s so lusicious looking.

    It’s sweet to experiment looking at things like I’ve never seen it before.



  2.  #2Terry on March 6, 2009 at 7:03 pm

    I love Mike Dooley’s Notes from the Universe, too, and have them delivered to my inbox daily. They manage to hit home 99% of the time. It’s uncanny!

    I like your idea of removing things that bring us backward in time. We can’t move forward when we’re living in the past. (Can’t attract new love when a song or the smell of a candle is bringing us back in time to an old love.)



  3.  #3tinque on March 6, 2009 at 7:20 pm

    This is a great idea for releasing stuff that has hurt or rewriting our negative, habitual thought patterns. Fresh eyes are great to keep the wonder and awe alive. But what about the stuff that feels good, especially if it once didn’t? I wouldn’t want to let those things go never to be remembered. An embrace from a beloved is all the sweeter when going in with memories from the last affectionate encounter.
    Thoughts?



  4.  #4Dorothea on March 6, 2009 at 10:18 pm

    I really feel like this blog has some of the most thoughtful and relevant content on the internet. :):)



  5.  #5Rori Raye on March 6, 2009 at 11:03 pm

    Thank you, Dorothea, what an amazing thing to hear, Ann, I love your take on this, and Terry, yes – that’s the kind of experiment I’m doing. And Tinque, I thought the same thing – then I rethought it.

    Was I sure? I asked myself? Try it completely new, fresh, first time, without knowingly going back, without knowingly accessing “memory,” and let me know what you find.

    For me – it brings an almost instantaneous thrill. I believe it’s energy loosening up in a rush, resistance dropped.

    Love, Rori



  6.  #6Ann on March 6, 2009 at 11:33 pm

    Thanks Rori. Love to read your comments on our comments.

    I just had a “OH WOW” moment. I read Rori’s post again then all the comments.

    And I feel in awe right now. Each moment, each day is different. Each one has the possibility for me to “feel” it fresh.

    My days often looked the same, same rountine, same foods, talk to the same people etc….But it’s up to me to remember, each day this moment hasn’t happened before. Sure there might be similiarities, good or bad, but it’s up to me to look with fresh eyes.

    How do I feel? How do I focus on me to feel better? Day in and day out to check in with me.

    I love this blog!



  7.  #7heartbeat on March 6, 2009 at 11:46 pm

    I feel excited to share my experience with old stuff recently. Rori I had all my paintings from years ago stored away for about ten years. After I moved here into this apartment from a house, I had no space to store them. And they had a lot of memories attached, a lot of them confusing and tumultuous. I felt burdened.

    One Sunday, I just hung them all on the walls in my hallway. Well – I felt astonished! And I felt sad I’d forgotten the one, BIG thing I’d missed – my own self in paint, my expressions of my world, the tender feelings. The connection with the memories just vanished.

    I feel more complete somehow. I feel like a mother whose daughter has returned home after a long time gone.



  8.  #8heartbeat on March 7, 2009 at 12:14 am

    I was going to put this comment under another post to continue on from my previous story, but it feels so relevant here, so I scrolled back –

    family (parents, sister): we all went our separate ways. I never felt they were a part of my life. Something’s shifted and I WANT to leave enough ‘elastic’ in my life so I can feel able to respond to them afresh.

    So many years I felt pulled down by my reactions to the past. But we’ve all changed. Sometimes I listen to my mother and think ‘what an amazing, wise funny woman’. Or I hear my father’s need to be useful, his vulnerability. And my sister’s tenacity and insight and her total confidence with being herself.

    And I want to respond to these new feelings. That looks like – I have time for them, I feel interested and connected. I take care of myself too.

    It’s new. ‘Elastic’ feels like I’m committed and exercising a new muscle. That feels good.



  9.  #9Linmayu on March 7, 2009 at 12:29 am

    I absolutely love this post. Shredding the originals. My originals had been doing a lot of damage!

    Contracts re-written every day at dawn, updated every moment. Feels like one of the books I’d been reading on the law of attraction, where you basically prepave every moment with good intentions. And it is good to know that I can always update what I’m trying to attract.

    Yesterday I had a psychic do a tarot reading for me and she advised that I put down, in excruciating detail, exactly what I want from a love relationship, and then just let it go and meditate. I wrote an effing BOOK and posted it privately on Livejournal, it feels so good to read it and to know that this contract has replaced the previous contract I had, which promised me that men would always hurt me and make me feel ugly and prove to me that I was unworthy.

    I have started teaching myself to sing, and it’s thrilling to hear how I sound these days. Gives me goosebumps. I never thought I could sing half-decently, but I can, and someday I’ll sing beautifully. My old contract of having an unacceptable voice that no one wants to hear–must have been shredded with the others. Thank Goddess.

    When I try to bring back a memory of a thrilling intimate moment, it sometimes comes back with the same power that it initially had for me–but there’s a limit to how many times that works. It is a good thing that there is no shortage of new thrilling moments to create. Even without an actual physical man in the picture, I can experience an amazing moment of connection, and it is always new.



  10.  #10Ann on March 7, 2009 at 12:36 am

    Heartbeat “exercising a new muscle” sounds like a good description of using the tools.



  11.  #11heartbeat on March 7, 2009 at 12:44 am

    Ann I nicked it from Rori lol!!



  12.  #12alias girl on March 7, 2009 at 1:13 am

    i feel inspired and calm readin linmayu’s last comment. i feel very grateful this blog exists and i get to be a part of siren island.



  13.  #13Katja on March 7, 2009 at 4:05 am

    Wow! Feels so amazing to read your comments and the post previously of course! I feel such a shift in my life and I feel like all the people around me are changing,too. I hope I don’t get a sad moment again like I had some days ago when everything seemed to be so dark and bad. But right now everything feels light and fresh and easy. I changed…I am now getting up in the morning (I had difficulties with that-usually I went back to bed after feeding the baby in the morning and sleeping until the early afternoon),take a shower or an energizing bath (I use bath treats with the scent of lemon,orange or strawberry,they don’t make me tired again),put body lotion on,wear make-up,do my hair and get dressed with clothes I would wear outside,no comfy homewear anymore (only from time to time). That feels really good! I eat healthier,I drink more tea and no coffee anymore in the morning. I am doing creative stuff,I am organizing our home (I’ve been really messy in the past and kind of chaotic) and all that feels like fun,too. I never thought it could be fun to do household stuff. I wear a smile on my face. And I am singing,too-like you Reshi (or Linmayu,which one do you prefer?). I was singing in a choir as a child but later I thought my voice wasn’t that good. Now I just tried it and it sounds great to me!!! My daughter loves it,too. She always smiles when I am singing ๐Ÿ™‚ I did something really sweet for myself yesterday-I took my red lipstick and wrote “I love you!” on the mirror in the bathroom as a reminder for myself. I feel,the first time in my life I guess, so free and so myself…I feel deeply moved right now thinking about that. Btw I tried this emo trance thing and it didn’t really work-maybe I did something wrong. But I realized that it helps me to release any tension in my body when I am singing-it feels like letting all the stuffed energy or bad energy out of my body. What do you think about that?

    Ann-I loved what you wrote about the body lotion ๐Ÿ™‚ I thought about two body lotions I have standing around in my bathroom,one is raspberry and one is coconut (but it smells more like vanilla) so I feel inspired by you to combine them both and see what scent will occur afterwards ๐Ÿ™‚ I feel excited about this!

    Hugs and love to all of you!



  14.  #14Daria on March 7, 2009 at 11:16 am

    LinMayu… how are you teaching yourself to sing? I also want to progress to singing half decently and then beautifully!



  15.  #15Ann on March 7, 2009 at 3:33 pm

    Katja, let us know how combining the 2 scents work. This comment box is little today unsure how this is going to look.

    alias girl, I feel in awe of you. I know you often read and post using your cell phone. It’s a chore for me when I read by cell I don’t know how you do it. And thanks for mentioning on another post that you take self photographs I tried it with my phone it looks pretty good.

    Ughh this comment box is bugging me.



  16.  #16Ann on March 7, 2009 at 7:41 pm

    Ok ladies this feels nervous to me lol. Alias Girl and I were talking about self photography a few post back. Well I create a blog and put some pics on it please take a look. You can comment there if you like. These are original pics and I’m posting in the moment so I guess it fits on this post.

    http://lovinglifeasme.blogspot.com/



  17.  #17cookie on March 7, 2009 at 9:11 pm

    i feel uncomfortable about speaking about someone else’s pics but ann, i look at your pics esp the bottom one and it is something very soft and beautiful about the way you look in the pic. Would you want to post one with you smiling? I feel like I shouldn’t be making suggestions but i would like to see what your face looks like with a happy smile on it.



  18.  #18alias girl on March 7, 2009 at 9:30 pm

    how fun. ann i love your pix. i love your face. i feel like i got a peek into your deep soul by looking at them. i feel teary. i feel embarrassed.

    i seem to feel embarrassed about people witnessing my feelings. that is what i am discovering in my work with emily the trauma releasing/energy work therapist. everytime i have a feeling it is often followed by me feeling embarrassed.

    anyway ann thanks for sharing your pix! i feel so happy you are on siren island.



  19.  #19Ann on March 7, 2009 at 9:37 pm

    Cookie thanks for the compliment. However, I’m not comfortable with my smile, smiling eyes(which I’m not the best at) are the most I can do.



  20.  #20Ann on March 7, 2009 at 9:56 pm

    AG, I guess I was typing the same time you were lol Thank you for your kind compliments.

    I know what you mean about feeling embrassed by others witnessing your feeling-vulnerbilities.

    I posted a pic of a wishing well I drew a few months ago. I was going to work on Siren Island. But I have to be able concentrate when I sketch and a little 8 year old wanted my attention lol



  21.  #21Linmayu on March 8, 2009 at 12:33 am

    So, Ann’s a HOT grandma! Wow. Such deep, amazing eyes…a characteristic I hope to develop as I grow older. It can’t be found on someone young, though innocence has its own beauty.

    Katja, I like to be called either Linmayu or Reshi; both are Goddess names to me. ๐Ÿ˜€ And I can feel what you’ve said about how singing can release tension. When I sing, or play songs I’ve written on the piano, I feel this burning fire going down my back. All these emotions that I was afraid of seem to come up and release themselves that way. I wish I had sufficient time and money to devote myself more wholeheartedly to music, because I think I have a tiny little seed of talent that could be nurtured and developed. Maybe not to a professional level–but to a very nice level nonetheless.

    In my ideal world, there wouldn’t be professional musicians and dancers and artists; EVERYONE would sing and dance publicly and make their own art.

    Of course, for some reason, rather than developing talents I do have, I seem to find myself more compellingly drawn to beating my head against things I have NO talent for, like sales work and talking to men.

    Daria, I use the American Idol Singer’s Advantage CDs, which I got at a bookstore a while back. I know it sounds cheesy as hell but you’re basically getting infinite voice lessons for $50. I’m quite pleased with it. I also use the fabulous section on the voice on Modern Siren, of course.

    Mostly, though, I just sing random things while I drive to and from work. ๐Ÿ˜€

    I’ve had more deep thoughts on this whole business of shredding the originals. Is this not what forgiveness is all about? I just realized tonight that I could CHOOSE to live as though no one had ever hurt or abused me in the past. And I could choose to live as though I have never hurt or abused anyone else, as though I am inherently good. A huge puzzle piece has fallen into place and I don’t think words could express the gratitude I feel for it. I find it so amazing that Rori takes time to write all these wonderful articles for us; she really does go above and beyond the usual standard of the internet, as Dorothea said.



  22.  #22Daria on March 8, 2009 at 1:07 am

    Wow Reshi thanks for the tip about CD’s. Yay. I hung out with an ex today and learned a lot about what I read in Rori’s wonderful letter about Targeting Mr. Right. If a guy likes you and thinks you guys have stuff in common then he will want to be friends. He will still maybe make it ok to have sex and stuff but you will be friends. This is what I feel like from my ex. So glad to notice it.

    Also really liked the manslations blog. Like when the guy told the girl who was having a “bootycall relationship” that when the man bought her a card it wasn’t a clear indication of whether he wanted more or not. Lol. He said the gift it’s between the fuzz in his pocket and a diamond ring (or something romantic I forgot) but definitely more towards the fuzz. Also advised women to look for whether the thing he does for you could be because of sex, or just because. Really helped me today with my ex, because I was able to put into perspective his “buying me a cheese roll” at taco bell is not fulfilling my all I need lol… or his wanting to spend 20 minutes more with me before going in the hosue (wanted to have sex). Ha. I feel so calm and glad. My ex thinks he’s my friend. Lol. I feel so glad to feel so laid back about this.



  23.  #23Katja on March 8, 2009 at 1:41 am

    Ann-Thank you for sharing your blog and your photos. I feel like I have seen you somewhere,like I know you from somewhere. I also like your eyes and I am sure that you have a fabulous smile ๐Ÿ™‚ But if you don’t like it,ok.



  24.  #24Katja on March 8, 2009 at 10:28 am

    Ann-combining the two scents of those body lotions was a great idea and I love it now. The scent that occured is kind of mysterious,warm and fruity. I wear it today and I am feeling great ๐Ÿ™‚

    Btw I tried today to look at things like I have never seen them before,like they don’t remind me about something. I tried this while taking a bath and relaxing-I looked around in my bathroom as if I was a guest at my home and as if I had never seen it before and that felt absolutely great and fantastic! By looking around I thought, wow this has to be the bathroom of an incredibly interesting and fascinating woman. Then “I came back” and realized that this is MY bathroom and that I am this interesting woman. That felt absolutely amazing! Wow…



  25.  #25Maria on March 8, 2009 at 1:10 pm

    Reshi, l loved the way you described your “new contract” that makes total sense. Have you heared of Silva method? l havent tried it myself, but the idea is to put down all what you woudl like to have in your life and manifesting it into your life. Soon you become to act toward it. And by doing the baby steps, you feel better and better every day.
    God, l think our baby steps here has been progressing into toddler steps:)



  26.  #26Ann on March 8, 2009 at 3:07 pm

    I hpoe my computer will let me post it is being a MAJOR PITA today.

    I wanted to thank all you ladies for your kind compliments. I love getting compliments from men but to me it means as much or more to get a compliment from a lady. Because I feel females don’t often compliment other females so when they do they really mean it.

    Katja glad you enjoyed mixing your lotions. Sounds like you had a wonderful bath.



  27.  #27Linmayu on March 8, 2009 at 10:30 pm

    It’s funny, Ann, I get no shortage of compliments from the ladies. But the men are generally keeping mum.

    I remember reading an earlier post of Rori’s about emotional intensity, of the draining kind, and I think that’s almost certainly what I have going on that keeps them leaning away from me. I’d been wondering how the hell I’m getting through this divorce with so little angst and so few tears, but it is because it’s all so deeply embedded and locked up in my cells, and everyone who sees me can feel it. I can feel it when I look in the mirror or at a picture.

    I saw him today, we had our first mediation session. It went as well as I could have hoped. I don’t think anyone really appreciated my million feeling messages, but I felt proud of myself for being able to say them without attacking. Though I did say “you” or “he” a couple times. D:

    Really, just to be able to sit there and get down to business, while keeping in touch with all that was going on inside me, felt like an accomplishment.



  28.  #28alias girl on March 9, 2009 at 12:17 am

    yae linmayu! congrats on staying in touch with your feelings during that. i feel really happy and excited reading that. i appreciate your million feeling messages. ๐Ÿ™‚ but i know what you’re saying. the people in your presence. eh hem. ie your husband.



  29.  #29Linmayu on March 9, 2009 at 8:58 am

    Yeah, my husband and the mediator pretty much just stuck to business. But she did tell me I did a good job managing my emotions, I suppose that is worth something. ๐Ÿ™‚



  30.  #30Ann on March 9, 2009 at 5:02 pm

    Anyone ever hate computers lol? Mind has been nuts the past few days.

    Anyway Reshi sounds like you’re doing great at handling your feelings through your divorce. I feel good for you that you are there for you.



  31.  #31Ann on March 13, 2009 at 10:14 pm

    I finally created the drawing of a leopard on Siren Island. You can see it here.

    http://lovinglifeasme.blogspot.com/



  32.  #32Uschi on September 9, 2009 at 1:38 pm

    Do we really want to shred it all? Some things are worth not shredding, nice memories, childhood (if it was good) things we learned. The only thing I want to shred are the negative things I learned from my former husbands and yet even there were lessons that make me the person that I am today. Without that there would be a lot of things I would see or do differently and possibly in a negative way.



  33.  #33T. T. on August 9, 2011 at 12:25 am

    All I can say is……. WOW. POWERFUL.
    there is nothing more to say. ๐Ÿ˜€

    T.T.